Do something!

01/30 - Its strange that how you can perk yourslf up. You definately have little control over your emotions. But, sometimes I dont know why i prefer to sulk. I feel, I do it to be a little tuff with myself. Force myself to feel bad so that I do something about it. Today, I cultivated the thoughts that I've messed up big time. Not entirely untrue either. Look at the list, its too big. First, I lost my card! how can I do it? I dont even remember how and when i lost it. Now, it'll take some time to get the new card and i've to goto london this weekend. will it arrive in time? And God! this london thing have already driven me nuts. I'm so confused. Damn! i'm messed up completely. I missed applying to that IPO dad advised coz i procastinated. I've already failed in submitting bills on time. Dont know wht to do about investments. haven't submitted rent-receipt either! And, this house contract have already sucked me. now, will thing go already here whn i'm in london. How to take money to india? coz I lost the card, cudn't but the mobile which already had tored my mind to pieces. Have to cancel phone, tv licence etc. dont know how many giltches will be thr. Ah! Whn'll I go home? i want to go home. I need to go home before my personality is seriously altered. Atleast, the date shd have been fixed. It seems I've lost control of my life or rather i myself let it loose!! Damed! do somethng!!