updates on last couple of days

- didn't go home on fri, thought we'd enjoy friday night!
- But due to some reason had to skip that :-(
- just a pizza and again cudn't see the night life of noida

- cricket match on sat
- alas, it also get washed away

- played tennis this sun after so long!
- Played doubles for th first time and it was fun!
- Wished it were a mixed doubles :-)

- Another weekend, another girl

- Cab has started taking more than 2-1/2 hr on the way back

- Got rid off my lovely locks :-(

- tue, in office with little sleep as electricity threw a great party for mosquitoes


P.S. One of the above line is untrue, but will be easy to figure out :))

::Dark Poem::

And when did we meet?
And when did we part?
And what did you say
That troubled my heart?

And why did you smile?
And why did you frown?
And why do I feel
That I have let you down?

And why do I feel
That a shadow now stands
Between me and my God
And is forcing my hands?

Did a blade swiftly slash
Where I stood, through my wrist?
Now the warmth of my blood
Seeks the earth where I rest.

Having nothing to give
Having nothing to gain
Here goes my life
Down the drains...

Do something!

01/30 - Its strange that how you can perk yourslf up. You definately have little control over your emotions. But, sometimes I dont know why i prefer to sulk. I feel, I do it to be a little tuff with myself. Force myself to feel bad so that I do something about it. Today, I cultivated the thoughts that I've messed up big time. Not entirely untrue either. Look at the list, its too big. First, I lost my card! how can I do it? I dont even remember how and when i lost it. Now, it'll take some time to get the new card and i've to goto london this weekend. will it arrive in time? And God! this london thing have already driven me nuts. I'm so confused. Damn! i'm messed up completely. I missed applying to that IPO dad advised coz i procastinated. I've already failed in submitting bills on time. Dont know wht to do about investments. haven't submitted rent-receipt either! And, this house contract have already sucked me. now, will thing go already here whn i'm in london. How to take money to india? coz I lost the card, cudn't but the mobile which already had tored my mind to pieces. Have to cancel phone, tv licence etc. dont know how many giltches will be thr. Ah! Whn'll I go home? i want to go home. I need to go home before my personality is seriously altered. Atleast, the date shd have been fixed. It seems I've lost control of my life or rather i myself let it loose!! Damed! do somethng!!

50 things to do in 2006

50 things to do in 2006 ( in no particular order )
1. Buy a Car! yipeeee
2. Learn Driving! whts the use of 1 otherwsie?
3. Learn to play any instrument (if nothing else atleast perfect your whistle!)
4. Sent as much time as possible with family (not any other long foreign trip!)
5. Play with Aasmi (best thing in life!!)
6. Tell 'I Love you' to everyone ;-)
7. Trip to any hill-station with family
8. Go on a road trip on bike with friends to jaipur or haridwar
9. Excercise regularly
10. Get a flatter tummy/waist
11. Get a new mobile
12. Be more extravagant
13. more smiles
14. pray a bit more
15. make some new friends ;-)
16. chats with divs (also meet more often)
17. play more
18. visit as many places as possible in noida/delhi with friends
19. earn more money than the last year
20. Help mom in kitchen etc evrything
21. get a new and some weird hobby
22. Read atleast 5 books, foutainhead must be one of them
23. Be more cool n' hep!!
24. Tennis
25. use more dramatic language
26. Be even more unpredictable
27. Invest
28. No addictions
29. BE more decisive and active

Oye yaar! Bahut ho gaya, it 4am! ab mujhe sona chahiye, vaise bhi most of these things will be completed in dreams only :)

12/09

hey! i'm missing a double date(!) to goto manchester. life's cool n' weird!

Good day!

10/26 - A real good day after three bad days! I felt the crossover point came this weekend on sun. Had this bad feeling on mon and tue day too. But today was good. Got up late as i'd to goto searchers in the morning. Felt good sleeping just some more! So, decided to wear the new trouser! I went to bus stop and saw the bus coming,no stoping time, cool! Give the check to the beautiful girl, lively smile that she had. Again, hardly any waiting time at bus for 11 as well as 97 and wht's more thr it was sunny morning! All signs of a good day! Office jate hi pehala kaam - prepare the case. called naren n' varsha and get down to make reco documents! it'd to be done by the evening IST! Really love working against a deadline. Filled the behavioural model in abt an hour n' half. Had to even skip the lunch. Baad main i'd potatoes wedges (without ketchup!) and coke at my desk. Chatted with friends on messenger some more! Time to hit indiatimes! Even got a good frwd mail in long time. A poem on xansa! Damn good! Called home to make the day a perfect one! Talked to papa abt pulsar n' tax etc stuff! Will call again tmrw to talk to mom. Had discussions on various things on the way back home and at the end felt like i've spoked a lot today! Back to home! Evening tea with hollyoak, wht else you need! Now opened laptop and thought if the day is going that good why not try that level of soukoban on which i'm struck for long! And voila! did it!! So, the day is cool, indeed! so, instead of writing abt it the night when thr is all probablity that i might not complete it and decided to write, right away! And it seems this is going to the only post thats gonna be complete! A little time is still left in the day. Thr's a Arnie movie at 9:00! But a big hurdle still remain - dinner! wud i make it good too? Or talking abt it wud hv made it jinxed by now! I'll soon find out and for you, you'll have to wait till i write again!

one fine day

10/17 - Mon. But its not today that I want to write about, its sunday!! That was probably the happiest day in uk, maybe beating the first day-the longest day when things were ekdum new and i cud feel the smell the air. And now i have de-sensetized!! but sunday was good. Got up at 4:30. didn't really slept at all. kept watching time as if time is up. 5'o clock get the missed call frm neeraj, had just barely shave, was just thinking of skipping the bath nad here he is. Put my clothes and got ready in two minutes flat. Reached the snow-hill stop for mega-bus. It was still dark. Bus came on its time not too many passengers, took the first seat on the up. What a view, man! these are things and xps one shd have in his/her life. It feels so great, in the night, roads lit with lights, lots of bends and a smooth road! but it was time to sleep and that i did. Reached London. Lets give it a break, guess I shd make dinner now.

9/11 - the longest day of my life

So, 9/11 was the longest day of my life. Not that i find it hard to pass by but it was literally/scientifically the longest day of my life so far. And now have I already started to think about the shortest day?? Well, from where should I start about it?? The morning will be just fine. The morning 9/11. The scene, everybody except me rushing to get things done for my packing. It feels good to delegate tasks to your ppl who not only are better equipped to do that stuff but will also drive a pleasure in doing that. It was raining since morning and Dad had to go outside in the rain several time. The only one who was totally unaware of all these happening was asmi and was getting bored as no one had time to play with her.

Dear Me - the correct one!

Most ppl didn't agree with the previous one, so writing the correct one :)

Dear Me,

Today you complete another journey around the sun. So, let me take this opportunity on this momentous occasion to thank you for everything. Its been really wonderful being you. You are amazing. You are too good. You are God's greatest gift to humanity. Its really been a privilege to be born as you!!

You are the coolest dude ever, Man!! And girls must be ready to die just to have a look of urs. Its good that you stopped going to gym. Who needs muscles, not you dear! You look cute otherwise. Besides, there was also a probability of enormous time-waste because of pepsi/coke. And, plz dont you tire urself with jogging etc stuff, these things are for fat people not for fit guys like you. Stop worrying about trivial stuff. You have been sent on this earth just to enjoy life!

So, are we having a grand party today?? The offer to visit the dance bar may look tempting but I know you feel like going to temple more!! Wish you a fantastic b'day. Be happy n' stay cool as always!!

yours ever,
Me

Dear Me!

Dear Me,

I regret to say that I am totally fedup with you and your distractions. So I have decided to take matters in my own hands from today.

I have waited patiently for 25 years for you to growup, and have some sense. But now I have realized that some people don't grow up and they don't listen to reason. You are supposed to work in the office and you are sitting here writing stupid stuff for yourself. No, we are not going to have party today..and whatever happened to your resolution of not eating junk food.

I want you to stop thinking yourself as the coolest dude ever. And no the girl in the adjacent cube or even adjacent country is interested in you. It would be better if you stopped all the nonsense talk. Whatever happened to your gym schedule or even the morning jog, huh??

The offer to visit the dance bar may look tempting, but we are not going there. I am also surprised at your tremendous ability to forget things.

Did you get ur passport?? You were looking for a change, wht are you doing about it, haan??
The list is very long and I don't want to go into lot of other details. I just wanted to let you know that you are not in charge from today.

yours ever,
Me